Wow, can you believe that half of 2012 is already over? Where the heck did the time go again? Personally, my last day of the first half of this year was pretty great. I spent it at my parents’ place. My sister just returned from 5 months in Spain and I hadn’t seen her since Easter. So we just enjoyed being reunited as a family, catching up on the things that have been going on in our lives. It was probably one of the hottest days of the year so far, with a clear blue sky and the sun burning down on us. In the evening, the sky was suddenly full of dark clouds and then the biggest hailstorm I have ever seen in my life came down. The streets were quickly covered with lots of big white hailstones. I was pretty happy we made it inside in time because I’m sure it would have hurt as hell to be outside in that crazy weather. I watched that natural spectacle from the window and I came to think that, just like the weather, life can change in the blink of an eye. From sunshine to rain (or hail) and back. And hinestly, that’s pretty much what my first life of 2012 has been like.
I started 2012 from a very low point. I was going through a dark valley of discontent and restlessness. I knew that I needed a change in my life, that I needed to find a new direction. At first, this change happened jobwise. I had been pretty unhappy with my job situation back then, so finding a new job without even really looking for it was a great relief. But still, I hadn’t really found what I was looking for – until one day I was lying sick on the couch and I found a song in my head. This quickly turned into a pretty big idea, so I secretly formed a plan that I’ve been following ever since. And it’s been working out pretty well. I’m at the start of something new and exciting – and over time I even found the courage to tell people about it. I know that some of them are quietly laughing about me, thinking I’ve gone crazy. But guess what: I don’t give a dam! Because in 2012 I’ve learnt not to hide my true self anymore. I am who I am and I have every right to be the person I want to be. And so does everybody else. Funnily, the people who seem to make fun of you the most are the ones who are unhappy with their lives themselves, but just don’t dare to make a change.
These changes in my life came with something else that I’ve been lacking for quite a long time. I’m finally having a social life again. I don’t really know why I never managed to make real friends back where I lived before. I think it was partly the circumstances of living on the outskirts of a smaller city where I had to take a bus to get to the city center and the commute to work that didn’t leave that much free time during the week. But I also think that I just got lazy after a while. I’m not a loner, but I do enjoy having time to myself, so I didn’t mind too much. It gave me a lot of time to breed over my ideas. The bad thing was that I was solely dreaming and thinking. Now I’m not just a dreamer anymore. I’m a dreamer and a doer! And I’m so glad I made this transformation. Because I love my new life! I feel that I’ve moved a huge step closer to my real self and I’m not scared to show it to others.
I’m really excited about the second half of 2012. It’s gonna be an amazing summer. I’ve got a couple of concerts lined up I wanna go to, I’ll be working my ass off in the rehearsal room and maybe I’ll even have time for some travels. And then we’ll see what happens from there. All I know is that I’m on the right path and I won’t let anyone or anything stop me from moving forward.
What about you? What have you planned for the rest of 2012? I’d love to hear about your plans!