Today has been my 3rd day back at the office after my holiday and I’m already feeling like I want to take some time off again. Sigh! Our trip to Scotland was amazing though and exactly what I needed. It was so great to spend some quality time with my sister. We don’t get to spend a whole week together that often anymore since we’ve both moved away from home. When we’re together we’re getting into the funniest adventures we will laugh about for years. We actually had the plan to convince people we met that we were twins because we get asked that a lot which I think is a strange phenomenon. I mean, I know we have a similar hair colour and cut and we pretty much share the same taste in clothes (we actually own the same shirt, but never wear it at the same time). But I just don’t think we look that much alike. Plus, I’m 4 years older, but hey, I know I look waaaay younger ;). Anyway, we never got around to pull that story. Instead
- we got stranded in a little village on an island with no restaurant or supermarket where we could get something for dinner.
- we bought a pizza at our hostel and made it in the microwave. It looked pretty awful, but pizza mash doesn’t actually taste that bad when you’re hungry.
- we wanted to take the bus to a bigger city to take a look around (and to get proper food!), only to find out that the next bus was coming in 2 hours. So we went for a walk and got drenched despite carrying an umbrella. Why the heck does it always rain from all sides in Scotland? Rain has to come from above, you know!
- I took part in a pub quiz and made second place. Yay, me! Ok, I actually think the handsome quiz host gave me a couple of extra points because I did terribly…
- I convinced my sister to try Haggis with me and we both loved it.
- when we were about to leave our hotel in Edinburgh, the fire alarm went off. My sister wanted to get out as fast as she could. Having had my experiences with false alarms, I kept on packing. (Ever had a fire alarm in the middle of the night which made you run down 15 storeys in pajamas only to find out that the exit door leads to the biggest street in downtown Sydney and that it was a freaking false alarm? Well, if you have, fire alarms won’t impress you that much anymore.) When we were finished with packing, we just walked out of the hotel getting strange looks from all the other guests that were waiting on the opposite side of the street, some in pajamas, with bare feet or non-matching socks. I’m sure people were freezing, but it just looked hilarous!
Oh yeah, we had a lot of fun in bonny Scotland. A lot of memories were made during that week. And realizations. I did a lot of thinking. I always do. So here’s what I came to:
- I miss travelling. I miss it so much it makes my heart ache sometimes. Experiencing the different, the new, the unforeseen can be so inspiring. I get to do some travelling for my job, but it’s mostly just Frankfurt-Munich and back. And it’s totally different from travelling just for my own sake. So I want to try to travel some more. It doesn’t have to be far, even within this city there are plenty of things to discover.
- I need to find a way to relax more in my everyday life. Over the past couple of months I rarely made a proper lunch break. I ate at my desk and either worked or checked private stuff on the internet. In my old office, people used to eat together and I really miss that. People here are a lot different. And when there’s a lot of work to do, I tend to skip the break, so I won’t have to finish work too late. I do know that it’s important to take a break, even a short one, to refresh your head, maybe take a little stroll along the river. I’m gonna try to force myself to take a break. And not just at work. With all my private adventures I’ve started, I always feel like I have to work on them all the time. I end up being busy until I have to go to bed which leads to my brain still being engaged with all these things when it’s supposed to sleep. Other people might not mind this, but I do. I need some quiet time to stay sane, so I’ll try to get some more of that.
- And lastly, there’s something that’s finally become obvious to me. It’s always been there and I tried to ignore it. But I can’t deny that it’s there. I’m pretty sure I’m going to need a big change in my life again within the next few years. And by big I mean BIG. Shockingly kind of big so it will leave people speechless and shaking their heads. I can’t really tell what it will look like. I’ll have to figure it out, sooner than later. And I know that I’m already putting things on the right track now.
Oh and here’s some advice for all the people thinking about taking a trip to Scotland: Make Edinburgh the last stop of your trip. Anything you’ll see after will just seem ugly and boring in comparison. Trust me!
Hey, I’m back from Scotland! What a great trip that was. I’ll tell you more about it later as I’m busy with visiting a music festival this weekend. Until then I want to leave you with a little glimpse at my adventures and the inspiration I took home with me from bonny Scotland.
We were lucky enough to be in Edinburgh (or Edinbro! as I like to call it) for the fabolous Fringe festival, totally not on purpose, but it was just so amazing. So amazing that I’ll be definitely back next year. It’s the biggest arts festival in the world and that’s what you get everywhere: amazing, inspiring art that blows you off your feet. On every street corner you can find artists performing music, comedy, theatre, dance and the likes and there are a bazillion of shows in venues all around the city. One day we stumbled into a bar that used to be a church and found Harry Baker performing his poetry on stage. Me and my sister were hooked from the first minute. I have to admit that I haven’t seen many poets perform in my life so far, but this just has to be pretty much the best thing you can get in that genre right now. He’s an incredible artist with words and I like the hip hop style of his lyrics (yes, I was totally into hip hop in the 90s). And him telling about his adventures at uni and the Worldcup of poetry or turning Ed Sheeran’s “A team” into a song about deserts is just priceless. I mean how can you not lie on the ground from laughing at lines like “every day’s a sundae for us”, “it’s too cold outside for Angel Delight” or my personal favourite “you’re muffin to me”? Luckily enough Harry performed two shows each day, so we were sure to check one of them out the next day. My highlight definitely was when he performed a presentation he had to do for his German class – rap style of course. I don’t think he expected someone in the crowd to understand any of it, but it was so, so funny! Especially when he showed off his pink pullover and yellow tights while rapping about it. You just rock in Strumpfhosen, Harry!
I’m really glad we got to experience so many inspiring things on our trip. I can already feel creativity flowing again and I can’t wait to start creating. I’m pretty sure Harry’s gonna make it big, so be sure to check out his YouTube channel for more hilarous poems. He also has a Twitter and a Facebook page. So check them out and support the arts, my friends!
Lately, I’ve been feeling terribly out of balance. When I was at work, I was thinking about music and songwriting. When I was making music, I was thinking about all the things I had to do at work the next day. I felt bad for not writing a new blog post in ages, for not cleaning my apartment, for just being generallly exhausted. I can’t even say why I’ve been feeling this way. Things at work have been stressful at times, but I’ve had worse. And my adventures in music are going great. I should be having fun exploring new territory. But I just felt torn between everything happening in my life. The funny thing is that I’ve had some people telling me lately that they think I’m a strong person. I am most of the time, but there have been a couple of weak moments lately where I just wanted to give up on everything and just go back to my boring old life.
But being a strong person, I know what to do. I have to gain back my balance, so it’s a good thing that I’m currently having my much needed holiday. I’ve tried to get myself into a relaxed mood during the last couple of days. I went for nice walks in the sunshine, enjoying the late-summer atmosphere. I read. I surrounded myself with things (first and foremost music) and people I love. And I slept. Hell, how I did. On Sunday, I was convinced my alarm clock was damaged when I woke up and it said it was 1.45 p.m. I had slept for more than 13 hours without even waking up once! It was like my body and mind decided to shut themselves off from the world for a while, so I guess it was a good thing.
After 4 days away from the office, I can already feel how I’m slightly getting back into balance. While I was shopping today, there was a street musician playing in front of one of the big department stores. I know it’s just a song, but when I heard him singing “everything’s gonna be alright”, it somehow made me feel better. All day, I had been terribly nervous about my singing lesson that I had this evening. Because so far, I left every lesson feeling like a hopeless case with no musical talent. So today I went there with that lyric in mind, I gave my best and my teacher said: “You’re on the right way!” So, I guess once again it’s just putting one foot in front of the other, even when you’re in doubt or you want to give up. Because everything really is gonna be alright!
Tomorrow I’m leaving for Scotland which hopefully will help me to get fully back into balance. It will be good to get away from everday life for a while, even if it’s just for a week. Breath different air, see different things, just enjoy life. I can’t wait to explore this magical and inspiring place!
Today is my first day of a 2 week holiday. Since the last couple of weeks have been kinda stressful and I’ve been feeling pretty worn out, I decided to take things slowly. Instead of running errands or going shopping like I usually do on Saturdays, I took a stroll to a park that’s just a short walk from where I live. I sat down on a bench, breathed, enjoyed the sunshine and started reading a Haruki Murakami novel. It was a perfect afternoon just by myself. I love this park because with it’s beautiful flowers growing everywhere it reminds me of my grandma’s garden and the happy summers I spent there, watering plants and picking strawberries. Even though everything is developing well regarding both my job (I passed probation period) and my private adventures (we had a band rehearsal with a drummer for the very first time), I feel like I’ve lost track a little lately. That’s why I want to use those 2 weeks to finally get back on track, to surround myself with people and activities I love. So I can start blooming again – like the flowers in that garden.